Out of My Hands

Well I submitted my applications today! Oh now all we can do is wait and pray!

Overwhelmed and Waiting

We make justifications for our decisions, we make excuses of why we choose not to choose. Is God calling us to deiced to just "stay open" I sit her with the stress of 2 jobs and if it were that simple I would have made my decision and had no doubt. But you see they are both the same and yet so very different. If I choose Columbus I am not just choosing a job but I am choosing my parents and my sisters and attempting to make everyone happy, maybe even me. If I choose Cinci. I am choosing connivence and submission to my marriage and ministry. But if I am "open" and apply for both is that what God is asking?

See it is funny it was all worked out, I would work here until probation was up and then start applying for Jobs closer to home. I guess I did not realize that I would miss having my family so much. It is nice to know that you are going to see someone that cares each day and that you can tell that person your stress and they understand because they are in the same boat. Working with my mother has been a true blessing, though I know the stress and the strain this job has placed on my marriage.

I know the answer but the what if's still haunt me. What is God testing, what is His plan, for now I wait and I pray.

While the Husband is away life goes crazy!

Well as posted earlier JP was gone this week and well life when upside down, to the right and to the left.
Here is my week in a nut shell or two....

Tuesday: Tires, Jobs and Ice Cream

I drove JP's car to work, no big deal except the exhaust pipe had something wrong with it and the front 2 tires were below legal limit. So of course when I step out the door in the morning the rain starts to fall. Then since the exhaust I had to drive with the window cracked and remember it is still raining. Well I made it to the tire co. we dropped off the car and I headed into work with my mother. We had a new lady start at work that day she was from Summit, the hospital in Cinci. And since I have been looking to transfer I emailed about the position and got very little information. While all of this is going on they post a position here in central office in my department under my supervisor. And of course all three of my supervisors want me to apply. Oh the stress of letting people down. After work we picked up JP's car with wonderful new tires and headed to Marshall's Tball game. Well at least I ended my day with a fabulous banana split! YUM

Wednesday: Mean Girls Grown Up

Well it started out ok until I overheard two of my coworkers as they began to talk about how they waited to post the position because I was off probation and how I did not deserve the job I had since my mother worked for the company. I was so frustrated and taken back. I work hard and I try to be nice, but sometimes people are just frustrating. Well after that wonderful moment, we all headed to our video conference, which went ok. So I had to sit in this conference with two girls that might as well hate me and two supervisors that want me to have the job. I don't enjoy stress.

After our conference I bumped into the new lady and we talked a little I asked a few basic questions about her job and such. So I was able to find out a pretty good amount of what she did and it was helpful...except the job is not posted.

We headed to dropped off the car at the muffler man's house to get that looked at, picked up the kids for church and then we headed home to meet a young lady to pick up the left over yard sale items...tell me why it was still 90 at 9:30pm that is just not right.