Good Morning Sun

Today I start a journey back to where I should be. I refuse to stand stagnant on the sidewalk of life, and let others pass me by. Often I feel like I live my life alone, with very little support. If you know me then you know that I am constantly on the go…not always by choice but sometimes. We live 50 minutes from our church and I work 90 minutes from our home (in the other direction) my support at work is well work related. My support at home is in a ministry where I am the daughter of a leader. And at our church I am often the woman sitting next to the pastor. I have found myself avoiding conversations because frankly the “how’s it going” kind of makes me want to scream. If you really want to know then ask but sadly I know you don’t based on your response. Please don’t aim to make a point to dwell on how hard my life must be or how “I can’t imagine how you do it” Let me tell you a secrete I don’t do it...God does. There is no way that I am able to do what I do. I don’t say that to boast I say that with complete humility in the fact that God is God and I am not. Then by removing myself from conversation I become more of a shadow than a part of the community or family. It is easier to be strong on the outside if no one sees the pain on the inside. Tragic I know. When did the Church become a place of fronts and masks…well we are all human…and sadly we feel that in its self is justification enough. But we may be human but when we are born of the Spirit we have a new identity in Christ and that is what our standard should be. So let’s say good bye to all put together me and allow others to see my pain but more than that let them see Jesus in and through me. I should not have my focus on my pain it should be on his sacrifice. So rather the sun is shining or not be sure to say Good Morning to the Son!

Wanting to Thrive but Sometimes Just trying to Survive

I frustrate myself I know what I am supposed to do and how I should think but I allow the world to cloud my judgment and change my reaction to everything. I seek encouragement and so often I get pity. It is hard to focus on the Good when you are constantly reminded of the not so Good! Yes my/our situation is not perfect…far from our idea of perfect. But for some reason God has handed us this life. And though I do not understand it I have to give him praise for what he has given and how he has blessed us. We have a home, one we do not have to pay rent on, plus Granny is only there half of the time. I have a job that pays the bills not always sure how but it does. And with all of it God makes it work…it can be challenging but who said life was gonna be easy? So thank you Lord for your gifts of goodness and for your never ending love. Teach me to trust and to focus on the blessings even if they are the challenges!

The Day of the Party

Well we started the day off with our FREE Chick-fl-ia breakfast, Yum. After that we headed to a comic book store…which was not open so we circled back to Goodwill first, then back to the comic book store where JP met a friend who loves Marvel Vs too…well he might like it more since he played the pro circuit. Crazy! So they chatted for a bit and then we headed to target and lunch. After lunch we were pretty much on time to head to the party. JP thought that the party was in Columbus but it was notJ. So we headed to the church and once we had parked he noticed Erika’s car and I thought the whole thing was blown but it was not! He was just completely confused! But it was lots of fun we had a great turn out and tons of superheroes!! Thanks guys you are so great!!

The Set Up

My cover was that I was counting beads, it may sound crazy but it worked since we have a women’s event planned for next week and beads are part of the whole deal. So I headed to the church to work on the decorations and such…we were there for 2 hours not too bad. I think it looked pretty good!