Bridge Thanksgiving Dinner!

Yum! and Holy Cow we had a lot of people there! It was a great turn out and a really good evening. We had probably 55-65 people there last night and most brought something to share.

Drama!

Well I really think it is somewhat funny how when you ask for God to show where you fit, he shows you where you don't. It is frustrating but somehow it is easier to see and understand. But I still lack the answer to my question, where do I fit? I know it is not here, there, this or that. In some ways I am not sure if there are too many options left. Currently my life is surrounded by drama (I work with college Kids) and I wish I could just scream get over it. In society and in the church we have become a people that are so over sensitive that when someone rebukes us and calls us out with the effort of sharpening us we become angry and bitter, or go and gossip because it hurt our feelings. Rather than evaluating the statement and working to resolve it with the person! Do I do this yes, I think we all do.

Baking Night Adventure

So tonight (last night) was the girls baking night!! Fun. Well it was eventually! First I was running a little late and once I got to the Bridge I was really trying to hurry! As I walked in the lights all went out. I thought the guys were playing a joke, no joke they blew a fuse. So the party that was suppose to begin at 6 started around 6:30 because we had to run to the grocery and get a new fuse. But once that was taken care of we were good! There were 8 girls there and we made lots of desserts and had a great night of giggles and bonding. There was only a small fire, lol.


After the girls night we had a staff night. Note to self it is way cold at Midnight and Ice cream is not a good idea! Well we were going to get ice cream per my suggestion but we did not! we went and got burritos instead! It was a decent time where we were able to hang out and goof around!

Are 5 hour meeting required? Really?

Staff meetings seem to be marathons why I am not really sure! Last night we met to discuss stuff for next semester and what should of been an hour meeting turned into a 5 hour meeting. We get things accomplished it is not like we goof off all that much but really they are forever long!! Oh well I guess it will have to do!

My Mind and Meeting Moments

So this weekend was suppose to be my "vacate Oxford" but in all reality it turned into a stressful day in the Ox Bubble! My morning began with me being started because my alarm was set but I did not know it was! It scared me. After the slight heart attack I began my day by running by Chad's to get the keys to the Association so I could print the bulletins for church. So I left to go print them and then I realized that I had misspelled a word and forgot an "a" so I turned around to go get it fixed. Then I had 2 more rounds of turn a-rounds because I forgot others things and stuff was not working properly. Once I finally got the things printed I was behind and had missed other things. I got to the church and folded the bulletins. My frustration level was a little higher than I would of liked. So I chose to be keep to myself and allow my frustration to erase. Only to be interrupted by a sorority who supposedly had the room reserved when we had it scheduled...Ahh I love Miamis Campus Scheduling!! So aside from the stress of the night my life has been interesting this weekend.

Now I sit in a room with my other coworkers or staff members. I sit here frustrated and holding my tongue because we are sitting here running in circles beating a dead horse. Where did we fail where did we fall? It is a slow fade. We as a staff sit hear grasping for straws. My heart is broken and at a loss. I want a spot I desire a place where I fit and to feel God has prepared me for that place. And right now I feel as if I am unprepared for everything. And as a staff we are so concerned with us accomplishing a task so it doesn't fail that we forget that we need to allow each other to breath and then to lead we have no desire any more. Right now I do what I do because they need to be done. So now what? where is my renewed heart how are we as a team working to build each other up, encourage each other, hold each other accountable or spur each other on.

-30 min later-

We all feel better!!! Bridge Break through! Yea!!

Wedding Web Page

Our wedding web page!
http://www.theknot.com/ourwedding/AmandaCarpenter&Josh Parson

Yea! I got most of the information into the web page!

My Toes are Freezing

Yes this might be one of the most random titles but it is so true.

I am truly a unique creature, God made me and I wish he would at least let me in on the secrets of how my mind and emotions work. Because right now I am pretty lost. I hold every emotion in until a am about to explode...or I end up exploding usually on Josh, poor guy. Right now I sit here a I realize that all my frustrations are results of my own poor decisions or my own apathy and laziness towards life in general. I am searching for my "place" when all this time I have chosen to not have a place. And now I am frustrated about not having one...that doesn't make sense. We have been studying the gospels and I realized that I am so focus that fact that my house is crumbling in the rain and the sand, that I forgot that I pick to build it there. I want to blame others and point fingers to diminish my faults but in all reality I have fallen and it was by no choice but my own. I look back at the last 8 months of my life and am excited about how God has changed me and made me who I am. But I look over the last few weeks and I sob because I feel as if I have stopped, paused, sat down. What is the cause? My lips want to say I was tired of being rejected, but my heart is saying I just gave in. I went from serving the Lord to doing my jobs. I went from wanting more and seeking to being satisfied with nothing.

My other woe...since I am on a kick this week. Where is my balance? It is funny we played the wii fit tonight and to see how poorly you do after you have not played in a while made me thing. Is this what God sees me as? I was doing great for a moment but now I am a wobbly mess that can barley stay on the board. It is true it takes practice to balance life and work and ministry. But it seems to be harder than I thought or at least remember it to be. I desire to be a part but I am not sure what that looks like or what it should be right now. I feel like my days are filled with tasks and assignments.

For all you readers out there don't worry I will make it I just need to rely on Christ and not myself because "myself" is what brought me here :( Oh and be glad I did not write this yesterday...It was before the realizations!

Good Bye Indian Summer! Hello Obama

So as much as I love this little Indian Summer I am way excited about the upcoming winter!! I love snow and scarves. The last few weeks have been well all about the election. It is funny to see how stressed the world gets surrounding one day. I mean it is important to vote and to support what you believe in. But the drama around it gets to be a little crazy. Because in the end God is in control and whether Obama, McCain, or Joe Nobody is in office God is still bigger and still holds the entire world in his hands! So as Christians and Americans we should not be pointing fingers and causing drama, but we should be praying for this new era and the new president to be...

The Kitty's Names

Well Krista deiced to keep the kitty... Josh and I named it Coda! But Krista has since then changed the name to Elle. She is cute and way cuddly but sometimes it is too much!! I need to get a pic of her!

E Session Pics!!!

Here our some of our 'E' Session Pics!!! I am so pleased with them!!!!