Monday, September 22, 2014

“A million emotions”

“A million emotions” that is truly the only way I can explain September. Though I am writing this post on 9/13 I will not publish it for a while…
As from the previous post you can see that I now have a new job and will be starting super soon!! Well in other super exciting news we are pregnant!! Yes I know! I have not been very open on my blog about wanting or trying for a baby. Our story is pretty simple; we have very busy lives that at times are super complicated. When we got married we decided we wanted to wait before adding kids to the mix. About a year ago (last fall) we decided that it was time to start the process of trying. For anyone male or female that is trying to have a baby I pray for you and your sanity each day. I understand the frustration around the process. Even knowing that God is in control and will bless you it is still super hard at times. We have had so many people along the way ask about when we were planning for kids or tell us we better not wait. With each comment my inside would tighten and then you have everyone you know getting pregnant. (it was like when you buy a car and then you notice it is the same one your neighbor has drove for the last year and then you see two more at work…they are everywhere) Through this process JP has been awesome, supportive and ok with my emotional breakdowns. (there are times I just needed to cry and there were times where I needed to not)
Confirmed, 9/18/14, after taking 1 pregnancy test and it being very faint I have taken my follow up test and yes there are two bold lines. Right now it does not feel very real. I feel like I am in a dream. We are super excited but almost nervous. After trying for a year it seemed to happen without us even realizing it. God is funny like that.

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